“In the measurement world, you set a goal and strive for it. In the universe of possibility, you set the context and let life unfold.”
― Benjamin Zander, The Art of Possibility
Everyone is a mirror to thyself that unknowingly reflected deep down what made of who thy really are…
With a recent interaction, the nuances between monologue and self-talk seem to be a matter of amplified self-preservation. However, without unpacking those hardwired self-beliefs, the gravity of habitual thinking will likely orbit in its own programmatic fashion, which overlaid the ultimate source of suffering, pains, and afflictions. The notion of attachments perhaps would precisely be highlighted how the mind is used to operating and being conditioned through the lens of discontentment. It is not all who we are and how we want to be remembered at the end of the day, but the comfort of the mental model is that everything yet nothing at all when it comes to purity of giving, in any way, anywhere, truly be free from our desires…
Below is one snapshot of the scribe that might only take care of the eye of the soul who seeks and understands. It’s the mirror that mirrors thyself, it’s not the only mirror that mirrors.
[Grounding exercise before entering the space and the interaction]
Q: How was the grounding exercise feels to you?
A: It was soothing and calming; helped me feel some guidance.
Q: What brought you here?
A: I feel uneasy and am unsure how to elevate my voice to be clear and assertive, to be my true self. I compromise with other people’s expectations or their projections, and I internalize, but I feel in my body the tension to hold and not express my truth.
Q: How does the sensation make you feel – in your body, mind, and daily life?
A: I feel a lot of pain and tension in my facial expression, jaw, neck, and chest; especially when I feel like speaking but I hold my tongue and swallow my thoughts or feelings.
Q: Anything else you might want to share?
A: Alignment has been lost or suppressed. It is there, but it is buried by layers, I overprotect those parts of myself.
Q: Would you like to try something with me? (exercise: hold throat and send love and forgiveness)
A: Interesting – a shifted like what were clouds in my mind, but then with eyes closed, I felt the breeze and the clouds moving along…
Anchoring is what I’m looking for – anchor into my clarity, to be kind to myself and my body, feeling it…
[Noticing the intentional presence with clarity and self-expression, to be aware and consistent]
Q: What would look different?
A: I’d be like a bird set free; I’d tap into my creativity and take more aligned actions with my true desire and not compromise my values. In a group, I feel like a bird in a cage… even with the shared missions but knowing so little about one another makes me feel uneasy…
Rambles: Well… you know that kind of feeling when you have something to say and bring to the table, but you over-consider other people and compromise yourself opposite to be that self which one truly is… And such a classic line that I felt true from Jordan B. Peterson’s 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos, “when you have something to say, silence is a lie.”
Q: How that made you feel?
A: It feels awful around the jaw, and the neck, collar bone, and face… breath also changes.
Q: What would it take to take a stand for yourself?
A: I need to give myself permission for space.
Observation: I am the only one getting in my own way. It feels small and overwhelming…
Q: How would it feel to open the cage for yourself?
A: Difficult to say the least, precisely the bottleneck I’m trying to break through. Hold space for others but still here I am! I am alive and safe!
Q: What would out-of-the-cage-bird look like in a group?
A: Free, embodied, clear sight, serve with other birds, out of the cage, into the sky…
[Brief meditation to anchor in the body]
Reflection: always curious to learn but fear of missing opportunities, so the mind wanders… the mind creates delusions of thinking…
Q: What will you do differently?
A: Oscillate attention to others than self and again. Continue to hold space for others while taking care of my body, feeling, and sensations, and noticing those body awareness.
Takeaway: “He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.” When I notice myself being present, I have the freedom to fly, I feel that would enable others to be present and to fly, to engage.
All night my heart makes its way
however it can over the rough ground
of uncertainties, but only until night
meets and then is overwhelmed by
morning, the light deepening, the
wind easing and just waiting, as I
too wait (and when have I ever been
disappointed?) for redbird to sing”
― Mary Oliver
Header photo by Rose feat. UVM, Vermont
6/15/2016 4:52 PM